Sono Christina, il Benvenuto Al Mio Mondo!: Conversation With God

Dear God.....

I come to you to say I'm sorry I made a promise I have yet to keep and just maybe I won't be able to.

Since I was a little girl you blessed me with the love of words.

As I got older I told you once I had my dream place on the beach, I would write my story...God you blessed me with a condo on the beach. I have been in Florida since August 1, 2011 and I haven't written a word.

I don't know if I'm making excuses or running away from the pain, maybe both.

I was thinking for almost 23 years I have kept the big secrets from my children why tell them now about me...They don't know me.

Although they are older I still may do damage...Does a child need to know everything. How can I explain to them things in my past that I have done, will they ever respect me again...if I bring to light my sins. Does this story need to be told?

God I feel like you want me to tell it...

I'm here living my dream and it's because of you.

I don't know how to write the first sentence, I never wrote a book before.

I don't know how to deal with the pain...see I have learn to bury it somewhere inside of me, and when it tries to come up...I made it go back down.

How do I write about things that I have blocked out, people that I share secrets with till the death only you know?

How do I write this...I feel an urgent need, like time is against me and that something going to happen to me soon?

God does a child need to know everything?

Do you think people talk too much?

Will I do more damage to my kids then good?

If I write do I start at the beginning or The End?