Life Is A Beach

Christina...AKA Beach Bum 

When I was a young girl and still today....

I snapped this photo of this crab while walking on the beach

I wanted to live in a beach house and have the ocean be my backyard. I wanted to wake up early in the morning and have a cup of tea and write my thoughts on paper...one day for the world to read. See my mind is always ticking, thinking at work with so much to say. I have so many questions about life and this is good, let's you know that your living life and not just alive. My mind is still fascinated by the small wonders of the world. Example I still like watching ants load food twice its size, Love to see old people still hanging out, and still with that fire for one another in their eyes. I think we should read more and put down the gadgets at least twice a week get back to the basic things in life that matter most. I can't think of nothing better than that house on the beach ...yes to have someone to share it with.

Made by two older lovers, hanging out on the beach.

My Place!

 I have that place on the beach now, and dreams they really do come true. I still haven’t found the special man to share it with but I’m not giving up on that either. The man that does come into my life and shares my world he will be simply amazing like no other, smiling. To understand me you have to be different, most of all you have to be one of my kind...Amazing!

But in the meantime and between time,

Come hang out with me on North Hutchinson Island, Florida

Hutchinson Island, Florida

See You Soon, 

Christina

Come to Hutchinson Island, I will be waiting for you:

It's just a click and a link away...

http://www.tripadvisor.com/Attractions-g34309-Activities-Hutchinson_Island_Florida.html

Mountain Momma

West Virginia Mountain Momma

The State Capital...Charleston, West Virginia

Although I have traveled many places I was born and raised in Charleston, West Virginia. Most people don't have a clue that West Virginia is its own state, and not the state of Virginia. West Virginia pride is strong and you will find here the nicest people in my hometown. You see in the photo above the beautiful mountains in West Virginia but did you know....Coal Is King In West Virginia! No I'm not a coal miner's daughter but I'm proud of the people that work in the coal mines to keep the lights on in America. In the United states coal accounts for approximately 50% of the electricity produced.To all the families & friends of those who have died in the coal mines nothing can bring back your love ones but do know that their work was not in vain and it has my up most respect. May God continue to make each day of your life more easier than the next, ease your pain as time goes by, and bring to your life joy? God bless you!

West Virginia Coal Miner, Brave-hearts!

Here is a link so you can Travel, Learn, and Fall In Love With West Virginia:


http://travel.yahoo.com/p-travelguide-480309-charleston_vacations-i

http://www.rivermen.com/site/whitewater-rafting-west-virginia/

http://www.wvdnr.gov/hunting/hunting.shtm

http://www.msnsportsnet.com/teams.cfm?sport=football

Changing Faces

Sometimes I get tired of the whole dating scene... 

Example:

A black man said to me until I saw your pictures and read your profile I was ready to give up on black women. 

(This was on a Dating Site)

I said why...

He Said:

''Black women are all gold diggers, they wanna know how much money you make, what kind of car you drive, if you got a house, how is your credit score, they are loud, and come with so much drama.''

I thought wow

I'm a black woman 

This man doesn't even know me...

Now he assumes I'm different, why?

He told me his ex was part Asian and Black but as if the Asian part made her better, as if that's what he is proud of the most, and sent me a photo of her and ask if I could tell if she was part Asian.

You must like black women because her skin is darker than mine

I can't tell if she is part Asian 

He said if you met her you could see

I was thinking damn this conversation crazy...like being mix with something other than black makes her better in his eyes.

He wanted to know what was in my bloodline...

I thought he was searching for something to grab on to besides the darker side of me: 

I said my grandmother was white and Native American 

and she married a Black Man

and then Here I Am

Thinking to myself what does this man want me to be?

I have many different emotions inside of me....

Don't come to me and expect me to be the example in his eyes how a Black Woman should be.  

Then I got the White men that get fascinated with the skin 

I never been attracted to a black woman until you 

I would date you.....Your different

How am I different 

What do people see when they see me?

I get tired, so tired of all of this and I wanna run sometimes. 

It makes it easier to push them all away

To never let strangers close to me 

Then I met a man I did like and he didn't believe in a Higher Power 

No God, No Allah, No Buddha...No nothing 

I thought damn you gotta believe in something 

Do you think your life came about from nothing?

God and I are too tight-

For me to ever be with a person that doesn't believe....

That's something I can't conceive.

It's just hard out here listening to people and all the crazy stuff they want:

There's a lot of sides to me does it make me a race

If you took away the color of my skin and just saw the blood flowing within 

would it be easier to see....me, Christina, the woman.

One day I'm happy, sometimes I'm sad, I can be quiet but raise hell when I'm mad, I like money shit tell me who doesn't, I like nice things does that make me more subject to a label for having a brain, I know how to wear a dress on Park Avenue and fit in on President in Brooklyn. My laugh can be loud, I can go out with any crowd. I like guns, no roses but lobster, you see!

I did and have done things that the men that try to step to me wouldn't believe.

If I told them how would they label me?

What would that label be, something that reads:

''Use caution when you proceed'' 

I can't be the example of a Black Woman don't put that pressure on me,

I learned to love myself a long time ago

I'm a woman that plays many roles

I'm happy with me:

The Black, The White, The Red, The Brown, and The Yellow 

Sometimes I get confused 

Tell me what do people want from me?

I can't be who you think I am 

Why don't you take time to see...

The part of you you’re looking for in others:

IS THE MAN YOU FORGOT TO BE!

One Love,

Self Love,

Christina Pebbles Collier